Afraid. Rama is afraid. It seems like such an impossible thing for this man, who sometimes has more courage than sense.
He was afraid all the time then, and he’s still frightened now. It’s that fear that pushes him to care about the men and women in Milton, to consider offering help and even guidance, even if he wants nothing more in the world than to just keep to himself. He’s duty-bound even when no one’s asked or even wanted him.
He takes a sharp breath and his hand comes to rest on Rama’s waist. “I didn’t know I was going to fail,” he finally says. “When I kept pushing, I didn’t know that was going to be the outcome. I could have never guessed. And even now…even now I know as little as everyone else in this damn place.
“It doesn’t feel like it should be admired. And you…I wish….” He pulls his head back, eyes opening again, watery and a little bloodshot. He wishes Rama could fulfill his mission, and that there wasn’t so much left up in the air. “I wish there wasn’t so much left undone.”
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Afraid. Rama is afraid. It seems like such an impossible thing for this man, who sometimes has more courage than sense.
He was afraid all the time then, and he’s still frightened now. It’s that fear that pushes him to care about the men and women in Milton, to consider offering help and even guidance, even if he wants nothing more in the world than to just keep to himself. He’s duty-bound even when no one’s asked or even wanted him.
He takes a sharp breath and his hand comes to rest on Rama’s waist. “I didn’t know I was going to fail,” he finally says. “When I kept pushing, I didn’t know that was going to be the outcome. I could have never guessed. And even now…even now I know as little as everyone else in this damn place.
“It doesn’t feel like it should be admired. And you…I wish….” He pulls his head back, eyes opening again, watery and a little bloodshot. He wishes Rama could fulfill his mission, and that there wasn’t so much left up in the air. “I wish there wasn’t so much left undone.”