“People have let me down before.”

And he couldn’t stop caring for them. No - that’s not right, he had stopped and it proved disastrous. There is part of him, that harsh voice that reminded him all throughout his recuperation that no one cares what his rank is here. They’d openly chastised him for bringing up the past, and wanted everyone to move on with a clean slate despite the very real baggage they brought with them to this place.

It shouldn’t be so easy for him to start caring about them again. They’d actively spurned him, and Ram’s point still stands - if he’d died nothing would have be done differently.

Crozier frowns to himself, his own body language looking a little resigned. “I still feel…responsible.”